Heartstruck

lol being sad again today because of you..

until today i still cant accept that i've already lost you :(


its just school memories anyway for you right..and lies you made

to babygerl

i hope you're happy
because i'm not happy at all

lols


cant believe i end up being a piece of shit after all we've done



rindu awk

babygerl where have you been

i miss u
:(

cant believe im living a life without you

although some of my words are harsh..

im deeply sad about it..

just to know that

I.W.A.L.U

Like we used to

I can feel her breath as she's sleepin' next to me,
Sharing pillows and cold feet.
She can feel my heart, fell asleep to it's beat,
Under blankets and warm sheets.

If only I could be in that bed again...
If only it were me instead of him...

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music while you dance to "Purple Rain? "
Does he do all these things, like I used to?

Fourteen months and seven days ago...
Oh, I know you know,
How we felt about that night.
Just your skin against the window...
Oh, we took it slow,
And we both know...
It should've been me inside that car.
It should've been me instead of him... in the dark.

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music while you dance to "Purple Rain? "
Does he do all these things, like I used to?

I know, love, (I'm a sucker for that feeling.)
Happens all the time, love, (I always end up feelin' cheated.)
You're on my mind, love, (or so that matter when I need it.)
It happens all the time- love, yeah.

Will he love you like I loved you?
Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feel like you're invincible with every word he'll say?
Can you promise me if this was right:
Don't throw it all away?
Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things...
Like we used to?
Oh, like we used to...

Probably the last post for my blog :(


XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
thanks for being my followers


First of all maybe gerl you wont read this but..

im just too tired
trying to get the old you back :(

i realised you found ur special someone (mydear(shit))

you should just tell me and not hurt me like this

you said i never appreciated you but..
i think you should think what u said..

lets relive what we've done hehe
~u bought me a gift haha bread and bracelet stil keepin that

~first date..haha bought my first cap

~second date kissed you for the second time

~i dont count the third date hahaha coz we had a lot of times together in school

~having dinner with you,,even tho im lack of cash lol

~went to ur house for easther party yea :D getin to know ur family :)

~luchbreak tgther at school hahaha (banana with sauce hahaha)

~sneakin our way out from the saga sports and have dinner and roam the town

~hugging you XOXOXOXOXOXOXO



i cant write it all here i had too much memories with you..i knew you for two years
wont regret that..tought me alot tho..and how to man up :)


allthough i had a few girlfriend before you...those are just what we call cinta mungit


my true love is you and my first
always chekin u out on class

never knew i had a crush with you and ur crush is me haha lucky(thanks god for that)
lucky i made the first move hahaha

or else i wouldnt knew you..

ahh n following you to play volleyball even tho i suck n like a fagg
xD


so now i know you want a life
i never expect u cheated on me but

people makes mistakes

my heart for you will never change
ur my immortal cynthia


maybe one day you'll read this
hehe


you've been a realy great lover to me and my bestfriend cynthia
you came to my life and coloured it..with your smile


i realy love you so muuuuchh and always will
just dont regret your decisions
take care lysmysm be happy with him...
sorry for the badshit i threw on u..

love youuu



~Benedict

The princess and the wanna be prince slave :D

Cant sleep 3am :(

long distance sucks


Babe no matter what happens

you will always be my princess
im ur slave haha


how i miss the old you...dont change please :(



you blocked me on facebook
you dont tell me your password
you hide our relationship on facebook






if only i ccan relive those past moments we had...especially in school


ill sacrifice my life for it...


maybe im not you only one anymore...




~ben(babelysm)

Don't count the stars until you forget the moon



I realised my mistake..gerl

i just wanna tell you babe


i realy cared bout you..:(
ill do anything..


hanya untuk awak...


--------------------------------------------------------->
MISS YOU..!cynthia..

The old you :( cynthia



Maybe one day ill close my eyes forever
maybe then you will be happy..

Even the old cynthia that i used to know is gone

its ok :)

people changed
promises made to be broken..

The way you treat me is not the same anymore..
i dont know what happened to you..

if you dont want me to be around anymore :(
just tell me..


you used to care bout me..
miss me

now you rarely even text me

i have countless of sleepless night


i feel like shit everyday..


No one can ever replace you in my heart..


im seriously depressed and sad..

If i can roll back the time..

just to hug you..where you used to love me...


~ben

Promises XOXO



This is so hard for me :(
but ill just try to understand every situation you've been through
and keep it to myself
------------------------------------->
haha flash..see ur face n mine :DD

even nowadays its so hard to see your face every day
if its a test ill face it..:|

im not a strong person,mentally
if you wanna chase your dream i don't mind about it...:)

i know i sound like an idiot, immature guy...:(

but i'd rather leave my dreams just to be with you..and see that sweet smile on your face

just you smile mean the world to me :)

these few month since you've gone so far to work there
its really tough for me.

I may just act cool about it

we've been seeing together everyday in high school
having our lunchbreak together :(
laughing at every joke u made

imagine how thing works now..
I just wanna let you know i'm so deeply depressed
all this sadshit thats been hitting on me..:(


you've been a really great friend to me gerl..:((

Since the first day i met you..i never knew or expect that you will be so important to me

only god knows how much i care bout you..


lysmuch :-*

10pm

almost every second

im just waiting for 10pm


so that i can call to hear your voice for a few seconds


and sometimes when you doesnt want to talk to me thats the hard part :(((((((((((


But its ok i know your tired :)


LYsm

Part of me



You are the most amazing thing ever happened to me


the greatest gift i can probably give you
is my time..
something that ill never get it back...


I trully missed you..:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((



Yours forever~ben

Im just a disturber :(





I MISS YOU ----------------------------------->




i know that your too good for me

i dont deserve you..
i just disturb u all day


calling you is just another annoying you..


it would be better if i just die or something..

leaving all this emotional shit of me behind..



i just..sincerly lysm.......

I wrote this specially for you gerl..



i really miss the old you..
that cares a lot about me..

I cried every single day in the bathroom just thinking of you..

I cant imagine a life without being with you..

Even now that ur so far away..its already eating me alive

If this goes on i could probably die..

the moment when i first met you at gmax(hehe)

I can never imagine that ill be so crazy about you..


you stole my heart gerl..


all i want is just be at the same place with you..

staring at your smile every morning..

that would be the most precious thing i ever had..


I dont ask much from you..

all i need is just to be with you..

i Hope my tears will make you realise how much you meant to me..

Don't Count the stars until you miss the moon..







i would die for you..:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((